gosh...this is personal.
(studio re-construction...actually this picture was taken a couple of weeks ago...construction should be done this week!!!)
This is going to be a bit of a ramble. Sorry.
I very much struggle with the business-side of running my own business. The financial insecurity scares the bejeezus out of me. I frequently struggle to pay my bills. It is a roller-coaster. And I just don't know if I'm cut out for it.
The problem is, I wouldn't know what else to do. Go back to being a health food store grocery buyer? Go back to school and hope for scholarships to get me by? (What the hell would I study?)
I think the truth is that I just don't have the stamina and discipline to get it done. I just want to make stuff. I don't want to have to do the selling, too. I know what I need to do, I'm just a baby about doing it. Why?
Does the part of the brain that doesn't want to diet, the same part that doesn't want to do any marketing? Where is the motivational area of the brain located and what happened to mine?